byron katie
October 2008 
I WISH >> ...I could maintain the voice of Knowing
Posted on Jul 18th, 2008
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Halal the Giraffe
Halal the Giraffe
I wrote in the meme yesterday that "I WISH >> I were more sure of myself, could maintain the voice of Knowing. "
This inspires a little experiment: Today, I choose to assume that that is the only voice I can hear. If I hear confusion, then I will know I am confused (vs. fucked up and/or stupid). If I am sad, then I'll know I'm sad. How I feel is the state, the "why" is the story.
This inspires a little experiment: Today, I choose to assume that that is the only voice I can hear. If I hear confusion, then I will know I am confused (vs. fucked up and/or stupid). If I am sad, then I'll know I'm sad. How I feel is the state, the "why" is the story.
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Ooh, interesting experiment!
Ahhh, the 6000 voices! I, too, like your experiment. You're sad. (all you other voices keep your opinions to yourselves!) That's it. Sadness. what does it feel like? where is it in the body? does it move? what shape is it? how would it color a picture? what would it say to the world today? journal through its voice….let sadness tell its story….(you other voices keep out of it, leave the Giraffe alone!) Quite often, if I stay present with sadness without the interference of the “story”……..it's amazing how quickly it shifts. And sometimes it doesn't. Sometimes we just sit with it. But the lack of the story cuts out its food source, its energy source, and eventually it can't sustain itself….unless we believe the story again.
Hugs, Lalah!
Thank you, sweethearts. Great questions, Centria! I am forcing myself through the essay questions for the school app right now. Perhaps I should stop, answer the other questions through sadness first. That is, afterall, who's here today. Then maybe the “forcing” could stop.
Halal,
How you feel is the state, who you are is something apart from it. Try to locate that state, it can't be found. Look at the state long enough and it changes.
Yes, it sounds as though the forcing is intensifying the sadness. Value who you are - that can't be answered with those questions. I read something beautiful about individual uniqueness - Sherri writing about the reason she was chosen - here on Mother Mary's blog http://maryrives.gaia.com/blog/2008/7/root-a-toot-tootin_our_horns_a_life_celebration_jump_on_in
“They want me for my… get this: CREATIVITY & INNOVATION, FREE SPIRIT, SELF EMPOWERMENT, QUALITY ORIENTATION, PEOPLE SKILLS!”
You are no less.
Wishing you always - all the best,
Deborah
Deborah,
Your kindness to Hala brigs tears to my eyes. Thank you for your love an dlight i this world and to this kind being, Halal, who is a courageous warrior of the heart.
Mary
Deb, I never cease to be excited by seeing your avatar show up here. Thank you for your very kind and wise words. MM, so nice to meet you, and I look forward to following your challenge! (You too, Deb, if you're game.)
The sadness will tell lots of stories if I let it, but I'm trying to just be with the feeling and not the stories right now. It'll all pass, I know. Love to you both!
Gosh, I'm so honoured that Deb found my post valuable! I truly am! Halal you started the 'Who am I' tag for us so I guess it ultimately will go full circle… just like life :D
I am finally transitioning … creepingly… out of the state where I am ashamed of myself for getting frustrated with the crappy emotions. I used to feel like such an ungrateful so and so and that my faith was not 'good enough' if I was moaning about some 'little' thing.
I had to check a couple of my beliefs tho. One is that I am built complete, which means that emotions of every kind come along with it, the package. Rejecting them, any of them, is like rejecting a gift from the Creator - just my approach; not saying this approach will work for everybody.I say they are a gift, just like intellect and free will etc. because most other species don't have these facilities! But my point is that I can't be the one to decide if I've been faithful 'enough' or whatever!
I can decide how long I will stay in that state tho, so my efforts, if any, are to check just how long I have been revelling in that place, in the story, and wrecking my own quality of life…
Ok the second belief I checked was about growth. Again, totally a part of nature. It insists on happening! And we cannot guess what event or encounter is going to be impactful in creating a growth opportunity. Those usually are the 'confused' phases, when you simply don't have a clue about direction. I am trying to embrace 'confusion' and also wait out the good result. I am trying to 'go with the grow', as it is. I'm trying :D
Just don't beat yourself up for feeling less than secure all the time. Deepak Chopra enthusiastically refers to confusion as evidence of the infinite possibilities of the universe and he says, certainty - being locked into a particular course - is the lesser desired position! He says 'confusion is good' and exciting! Can you imagine that?
Thanks for indulging me as I go on and on and on. Blessings to all of you.
sherri
Sherri, thank you for taking the time to put all of that down. It seems you have developed a lot of kindness for yourself over time! I am built complete. Growth insists on happening. And confusion points to possibilities just as certainty points to lack of movement. That's great sharing – thank you!